Tag: POETRY

writing ‘blood of love’

blogging, poetry November 13, 2019

often i’ll write about my relationship with God in a way that might be uncomfortable for some. notably, all of my writing about God is in the form of a conversation. i think God values absolute honesty in communication, even if it is at times heretical. i feel when i am able to speak with God like this i am able to strengthen my relationship with him in a way that is honoring to Him. because i do love Him.

this is written as a set of four mirroring a backwards walk through the stages of grief. traditionally there are five stages to grief, the last stage being acceptance. this poem omits acceptance as i feel acceptance is unwritable. acceptance, to me, is a continuous process and since it involves so much change and continuous contemplation, the feeling itself can’t be isolated into a poem.

i wrote beginning with the last stages of grief so as to show the exchange of losing confidence in myself and losing my confidence in God. so here are the four poems and an extrapolation of my times wrestling with grief.

Flōra / Hark!, –
depression

i wrestle with identity and the burdensome weight of being called God’s child amidst my own short comings


-, Bona Dea / Rejoice! Rejoice!
bargaining

although it feels like a fruitless exercise, i call out to God in a way that feels in-line with the Christianity i grew up with


Ichor to Ferry Love, –
anger

the distance in communication with Christ offers little comfort amidst grief and the frequent reminder of ‘a plan’ feels dilapidated and tasteless


-, Tjú
denial

i know who i am and i know who God is but i feel we are asymptotes due to my own stubborn nature

read blood of love here

inasmuch i am speechless

Poetry & Prose November 7, 2019

in each beginning
gravity invites
to dwell amongst the sand and stars
to become like one another
and pull at each of the opposites

it was Abram, directed and removed
at a wall in a desert
where history had yet been proved
to have been more than a line
and like gravity,
Abram now Abraham
forsaken to climb

once again a beginning

Photos by John R. Pepper Inhabited Deserts

importance over penance under forgiveness over ignorance under importance

Poetry & Prose October 28, 2019

faith without reason is a miserable choice
and the breath of a deity is a need to rejoice


but why are you so sullen now?
there’s a God who forgives
our need to feel confident
is what vanity is

Christians,
Christians,
what blessing hath he left us though?
the dealings of our lives are aptly called an ebb and flow

archaic things that give us faith
just look at love it gives us grace

but, god, oh god, you love defending sacrilege
while culture becomes foreign becomes sinful makes you lack courage

god, you’re so defensive you’re so tender
where honor dies you cast yourself

but you are not a martyr
you’re no savior
just let Him be Himself

pride, immortal poison,
and we drink it
to refrain from doubt
or has He told us death is dead and therefor we should live without

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